Thank you my angel

Thank you my angel,

You bathe me. 

With your smile.

Bring me sunshine.

Dispel darkness.

Shadows of silence.

I see a new day.

You warm me.

With your goodness.

Kindness, caring.

Broken wings repair.

Wounds heal.

I am free again.

You sing me.

The song of love.

Unconditional and pure.

Open and hopeful.

Radiant and soft.

I surrender to the music.

Safe, cherished and whole.

Thank you my angel.

For protecting me.

In the mirror

I look in the mirror.

And see.

My eyes.

Tracing your world.

My smile.

Celebrating your happiness.

My lips.

Speaking your language.

My ears.

Capturing your music.

My heart.

Sounding your beats.

My arms.

Holding your dreams.

I look again.

And see.

A blur.

An illusion.

It isn't you, it's me.

For the love of friendship

A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow. - William Shakespeare

We hadn't chatted properly in months. Life has changed gears, leading us in different directions, for a dear friend I hold very close to my heart, and me.

Yet one stray sentence from her and I knew something was bothering her even as we hung up the phone. It rattled me long enough to call her back even though we'd finished our conversation the first time.

I was right. We bonded for another 30 minutes, on the topic of concern and about this and that, until her daughter woke up.

This time, despite the abrupt goodbye, it felt right again.

It was unspoken but I suspect she felt the same.

Years of friendship do bring that sense of comfort and ease.

And flow.

We've shared a significant part of our lives together.

Yet that one element which sets our friendship apart is that we have allowed each other to grow.

Given each other freedom to make choices that are right for the other. At all times.

No questions asked. Or prejudice or judgement calls.

Just rock solid support and listening with heart.

Time, distance and life changes haven't altered that.

Fear

Fear surrounds my heart.

And suffocates our love.

I fear.

The restlessness hidden in your calm.

The flippancy in your tenderness.

The hidden wings in your arms.

I want to hold you captive.

But I can't.

Powerless.

Gasping for breath.

Fear surrounds me.

As I hold you close to my heart.

And set you free.

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For you, with love in my heart.

You are within me.

All my life, I had wished for you deep in my heart.

You arrived with wild abandon, joy, and intoxication I sought.

Bliss, contentment, peace.

Filled my days and nights with tender love.

And then it was over.

I couldn't find it within me to stop you.

Many seasons have passed and I am still bound.

To unfulfilled dreams and silent tears.

Bitterness, hurt, anger and helplessness thrive.

What was pure, precious and radiant.

Appears tainted, meaningless and ugly.

Words have flushed out, long silences have spoken.

Yet the invisible thread remains.

Softly holding that chord, I wait.

With a shred of hope.

That someday we will be one again.